Recently I had the unfortunate experience of living through a square between the Full Moon and my natal Lunar Nodes. What this means is that the Full Moon of January 23, 2016 at 3 Aquarius-Leo was at exact 90 degree angles to the North and South Nodes in my personal chart at 3 Scorpio-Taurus.
(Adding to this is transiting Mars sextile natal Mars, transiting Pluto sesquiquadrate natal Pluto and semi-square Sun, and transiting Jupiter-North Node quincunx natal Moon.)
Ouch!
From about two days before till three days after the Full Moon, I felt tormented and jittery, as if being terribly taunted. Of course, this wasn't the case. Outwardly things went quite smoothly. My wife was extra kind, I fulfilled my obligations okay to home and work. I even got a good massage and went to a hot springs for a soak. But my emotions were on trigger, I felt like I was holding back an explosion of temper. And I so terribly wanted to do different things from my normal life, like make a long trip to my land in Nevada, like work on project ideas that have that really require some significant funding, like talk and laugh and dance the night away with some frivolous friends. Since I didn't plan any of these activities for this time, none of it happened. And I lived raw and on edge internally.
Meditating at the time of the Full Moon didn't help with my jittery-ness, in fact, it amplified it. Don't get me wrong, I love meditating at the Full and New Moon times. Yet I find that I filled up with earth and cosmic energies to such a degree that I was unable to have more than superficial composure in social situations. This doesn't always happen in my lunar meditations, but it sure happened big-time now. A teacher once expressed that when filling up with earth and cosmic energies, it is important to have a channel for them to express, otherwise they can be internally destructive. I think that means that the energies can wreak havoc for the person - getting them into trouble with others, and causing personality pain, emotional loss, and defeating beliefs. As for me, I think that my blogging and my astrology studies for others acted as a channel for the energies I took in this time, as well as running at the gym. Yet it probably wasn't enough.
The theme for the previous New Moon meditation was about living with Guides. The guides and angels help with overseeing our lives, keeping us safe, showing us our next steps, and bringing us knowledge, information, and experiences when we ask truly for them. Perhaps the recent Full Moon time for me was a lesson in not being connected enough with the Guides, and in not asking for direction in adequately using and channeling the energies I had collected. Hmmm. Life is about learning, yes? This is good.
I'd love to read your comments!
(Adding to this is transiting Mars sextile natal Mars, transiting Pluto sesquiquadrate natal Pluto and semi-square Sun, and transiting Jupiter-North Node quincunx natal Moon.)
Ouch!
From about two days before till three days after the Full Moon, I felt tormented and jittery, as if being terribly taunted. Of course, this wasn't the case. Outwardly things went quite smoothly. My wife was extra kind, I fulfilled my obligations okay to home and work. I even got a good massage and went to a hot springs for a soak. But my emotions were on trigger, I felt like I was holding back an explosion of temper. And I so terribly wanted to do different things from my normal life, like make a long trip to my land in Nevada, like work on project ideas that have that really require some significant funding, like talk and laugh and dance the night away with some frivolous friends. Since I didn't plan any of these activities for this time, none of it happened. And I lived raw and on edge internally.
Meditating at the time of the Full Moon didn't help with my jittery-ness, in fact, it amplified it. Don't get me wrong, I love meditating at the Full and New Moon times. Yet I find that I filled up with earth and cosmic energies to such a degree that I was unable to have more than superficial composure in social situations. This doesn't always happen in my lunar meditations, but it sure happened big-time now. A teacher once expressed that when filling up with earth and cosmic energies, it is important to have a channel for them to express, otherwise they can be internally destructive. I think that means that the energies can wreak havoc for the person - getting them into trouble with others, and causing personality pain, emotional loss, and defeating beliefs. As for me, I think that my blogging and my astrology studies for others acted as a channel for the energies I took in this time, as well as running at the gym. Yet it probably wasn't enough.
The theme for the previous New Moon meditation was about living with Guides. The guides and angels help with overseeing our lives, keeping us safe, showing us our next steps, and bringing us knowledge, information, and experiences when we ask truly for them. Perhaps the recent Full Moon time for me was a lesson in not being connected enough with the Guides, and in not asking for direction in adequately using and channeling the energies I had collected. Hmmm. Life is about learning, yes? This is good.
I'd love to read your comments!
